In 2008, I was expecting my third child and I had a distressing pregnancy. I was under more stress, then experienced abuse and I was retraumatized by my LM household during a family function. I had depression and had to keep moving forward as if everything was just fine. Just a few months after Duncan was born, I was drowning in my sadness; I had post partum depression plus lingering depression/ptsd from my past. I was shut down when I needed help the most. I read that Jason Bateman felt he lost a decade - this is my era when I lost time.

On Feburary 11, 2018. I left Kirk a note on the back of one of my photography business cards


Please fight for me.
CeCe​❤

Things did get better but we were still struggling with how to begin healing and supporting each other.